I Survived...

The day started off pretty well...the boys slept in so my wife and I had time to get ready. My mom came in early just in case I needed help, so we went over a few things that were different (like the boys don't wear jammies with feet anymore cause they can't crawl with them) and I packed some drinks and snacks and was out the door.

It was easier than I expected cause the boys were so happy to see my mom. If they could wave bye to me they would have! Not to mention I left later than I had planned and still needed to get gas so I didn't exactly have time for the long drawn out goodbye I had imagined in my dramatic head.

Once in the car though, I did get sad just thinking of the days activities I was going to miss. I had to give myself a talking to (which consists of going through all the positives in my life "the sky is blue, we are healthy, I have a car to drive and don't have to walk/take the bus" anything I can think of) and settled down. Luckily, I stopped myself just before the tears came rolling so I didn't have to walk in to work looking a wreck. I learned this trick from one of my best friends, I have two and work with both of them- I know lucky right, anyway, its how she got herself to work after leaving her baby girl for the first time.

When I got to work it was already 8:15 and parking was crazy so I had to park super far. It wouldn't have been so bad if I didn't have so much stuff to unload from my car. I was only able to carry half my stuff up and then my feet were killing me! I haven't worn shoes in 9 months (been wearing flip flops at home)...let alone high heels! Luckily above mentioned bff is 7 months pregnant (we'll call her prego bff) and always keeps a pair of walking shoes at her desk so I went over and borrowed them to get the rest of my crap from my car.

Once I finally got to my desk with all my gear, it was 9am and time to pump and I didn't have a key to the lactation room. Of course, both women who are in charge of the keys were on vacation. I IM'd both bffs (because my phone and email were NOT working) to help me find a key or a room or something before I exploded all over my new work clothes. Preggo bff, found me a room to pump and then when I was done, found me a key so I could pump in the lactation room the next round... I love her!

As she gave me the key we made plans for the three of us to go to lunch and then I met my other bff to walk me down to corporate security to get a new badge (I couldn't remember how the hell to get there-I work in a very big building). Of course, badge machine was broken so I had to wait 20 minutes. By the time I was done it was 11:30 and time for lunch. We left for lunch, which was great. I really missed these girls and though they have visited me and the boys since we have been home, I missed the day to day with them. Once we got back I had to pump again, and then finally got to sit at my desk and call IT to restore my access to my email, phone, etc. By the time I was done I had missed my pumping time and decided to just go home and pump there...since it was already 4pm.

So there you have it! I made it almost the whole day and without a tear. I think the craziness of the day kept my mind occupied and didn't allow me the downtime to think of all that I was missing at home. Besides, I had been texting back and forth with my mom throughout all the madness at work to check on the boys and they were doing great! They took their bottles with no problem, went down for their naps, she even had time to play with the babyfood making machine and made them fresh green beans! Which they only took one bite of because they hated them!...but at least they tried them. As for pumping, I had left them more than enough...there were still 4 bottles when I came home and I pumped another 5 bottles at work so that alone was enough for today. I still pumped one more time last night and am pumping again now, so I think I will be ok so long as my supply stays the same.

I actually think today will be much harder because I will have more "downtime" since I'm pretty much settled in now. Its also going to be hard because I already miss the boys since I didn't see them all day yesterday. I hope they do well again today.